Who Am I, and Why Am I Here?

I’ve been blogging on and off for the better part of two decades. It began as a way to process the things I felt and experienced as a young girl with few friends and heaps of angsty self-loathing. Through the internet, I found a community with those who shared my interests, interests that seemed foreign and laughable to most of my real life peers. As I grew up so did the content of my blog. I moved on to snippets of my journey into motherhood and life as a military spouse. Blogging remained an online journal of sorts for me, and while many of my online compatriots discovered advertising and search engine optimization I was content to share only what struck me as useful or cathartic. As my family of three grew to five and I struggled to maintain my sanity while juggling online college courses, countless moves, and medical diagnoses for myself and my children, my blog faded into the background of my priorities. Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram made it easy to share my thoughts and memories with friends and family in small bits and pieces without having to maintain a website or sit down for more than a few moments at a time in between the day-to-day chaos. In fact, it’s been several years since this blog has seen so much as a word typed by my hand.

So why come back now?

I spent the past couple of years pulling myself out of a pretty dark place. A lot of emotional baggage I had never dealt with and a diagnosis of Asperger’s that explained a lifetime of pain and social issues finally brought things to a head, and I had no choice but to face it all. There was a lot of therapy involved. Not only did I have to rediscover myself after disappearing into my role as mother, but I also had to learn to truly love myself for who I am for the first time in my life. I won’t say it was easy or accomplished overnight, but as I turned 30 this spring I found myself with the most confidence and understanding of exactly who I am and what I need that I’ve ever had. It is freeing and motivating. But also…it’s something I can share. Something that can be a light in the dark for those who feel alone in similar circumstances. For those who are afraid to speak out for themselves. For those who need that little nudge, that bit of comfort and solidarity. Or for those simply looking for advice concerning things I am passionate about before they embark on their own journeys.

Going forward, I will be blogging regularly and providing a glimpse into my life and experiences with:

Asperger’s / Autism Spectrum / Neurodiversity
I am very proud of my identity as an Autistic woman. I strive to share my experiences and feelings concerning the normalization of neurodiversity while explaining what it’s like to be a girl on the spectrum, at least for me. Two of my children are also on the spectrum, and parenting them through their own idiosyncrasies has only helped me to better understand myself and what Autistic children need from the world around them as they grow.

Autoimmune Disease / Celiac Disease / Gluten Sensitivity / Gluten Free Diet
Two of my children were diagnosed with Celiac Disease in recent years, and we suspect the youngest also has it though he has been too young to test. We keep our entire house gluten free for them, and I share my cooking adventures as well as knowledge about the disease and the unexpected places a super-sensitive Celiac may find gluten in their products.

Homeschooling / Early Literacy
I have homeschooled all of our children from the beginning, and I am very passionate about literacy and the place literature serves in society for building a love of knowledge and use of imagination. I will gladly share curriculum choices and snippets of our homeschool day for those who would love to see more. I always love reading about other homeschoolers’ schedules, tips, and experiences!

Military Life / Living Abroad
We are a Marine Corps family currently living overseas in Okinawa, Japan. I’ll share fun bits of our travels as well as how we navigate this life with children who have special dietary needs without anyone missing out. We don’t let any of our diagnoses stop us from living life to the fullest with no regrets!

Motherhood / Self-Care / Depression / Anxiety
As someone who has struggled with anxiety and depression on and off for most of my life, I think it’s important to be honest about what that looks like and how you can find a way out. I poured myself into motherhood and began to feel suffocated. My recent mental health journey taught me the importance of self-care and learning to work with my strengths and weaknesses as someone on the spectrum in order to be the best mother I can be while remaining true to my own identity as an individual. You’ll frequently find musings about these concepts here as I am a self-proclaimed chronic over-sharer with no filter, and I hope you find some comfort in my words if you need them.

So there you have it. I hope I will be seeing you around in the comments, and if there is anything you’d like me to post more about or that you don’t want to ask publicly, you may contact me any time through my ‘About’ page located through the link on the menu bar at the top of the page. I am an open book, and giving of myself to help others brings me great joy and fulfillment. Thank you for stopping by and allowing me to be a part of your life in this small way.

1 thought on “Who Am I, and Why Am I Here?

  1. It is so good to see you back at it! I’m glad things are brightening up for you!

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